terlebey sudey~


yatta!! apa khabar yaa?? hehe. dah seminggu tak update blog. bukan sebab busy tapi sudah tak ada idea atau bahan untuk diceritakan. ada pon kejap lagi bunyinya macam emo lak..huhu. biasala aku. suka buat ayat2 macam tu. hehe

erm, kali ni aku nak share something. tak tahula perlu ke tak aku menulis pasal benda ini. tapi layankan jela ye kawan2. aku rasa aku terlebey sudey. macam tajuk tu. erm, tak tahula. tapi rasanya ye. ape yang aku dah buat?? hurm..ntahla. aku terlebey dalam berkomunikasi. bukan secara depan2 tapi scr sms je. even benda tu bukan depan mata tapi cukup bagi aku untuk merasa malu and rasa tak mahu keluar bilik. grrrrrrr~!!!

rasanya aku cuba ingin berubah. berubah untuk pandai berkomunikasi dan menakis segala perasaan malu aku yang over2 tu. so aku cubala untuk melakukannya dengan baik tanpa ada orang perasan. tapi aku rasa manusia itu mungkin sudah perasan! aduyai...mati2! aku tidak buat pape pun. tapi mungkin sebab aku je kot yang mostly byk 'mula' membuatkan manusia itu mula perasan. damn! hahaha. memang tak lama lagi mamps la aku..hehe. haihhhh..susah2. kenapala hidup manusia ni susah?? apatah lagi yang melibatkan dari dalam. perasaan. benda yang tak boleh paksa. tak pernah meminta untuk suka atau crush on someone. tapi2 perasaan tu yang datang sendiri. aku tak pernah mintak. apatah lagi dah final sem ni. sempat plak la kan nak berkenal-kenalan dalam masa yang hanya tinggal 4 bulan je lagi ni..

tak perlula tahu sape orang tu ye. diam2 sudey. sape yang tahu pon buat2 tak tahu jugak ok. hehe. aku rasa aku perlu stop. stop daripada mula perasaan suka aku ni jadi benda laen. caranya: jangan contact terus! kan2?? rasanya berkesan tak?? harap2 menjadi. perasaan aku ni dahla suka merepek. kalau dilayan tak tahula ape yang nak jadi nanti. so, i should stop. starting from this very moment. lantakla kalau aku sakit nanti. biarla sakit sekarang dari aku sakit kemudian yang mungkin dah tahap icu. huh!

ya Allah, kenapala agaknya pada saat-saat akhir aku di sini aku diuji sebegini rupa? adakah mungkin aku sudah dewasa dan mungkin dah bersedia untuk ini semua? but it's just a tacky thing. i should ignore all of these from the 1st place. bile dah melayan kan dah padan muka. dah susah nak stop. haihhh...nak 'L' jela pasni...lagi pon aku dah pon married dengan kawan aku a.k.a. akie kat facebook..kan syg kan?? hahahaha!

so, kesimpulannya: ntah..hehe. rasanya aku dah pasti dengan satu benda. tak perlu buat pape dah. no more messages. sebarang perbualan di alam maya pon kalau aku nampak aku akan buat bodo je. buat2 tak nampak. unless kalau manusia itu yang mula dulu. xdela aku ignore terus kan. harap2 berkesan even aku kena menipu diri sendiri. aku terpaksa. seriously. sabar jela. takpe2, aku kuatlaa..aku de ramai kawan2 aku. especially men2 aku yang sentiasa mengikuti perkembangan aku..hehe. syg korg. so, bagi mengelakkan aku merepek dengan lebih advance lagi so aku dah bercadang untuk mengaktifkan diri aku esok untuk menemani rudy a.k.a. cik limah untuk ke bentong bersama tiqa untuk fieldwork. itu kawasan rudy. 8 pagi dah gerak. so weekend esok aku kena bangun awal!! dah lama aku tak bangun awal untuk weekend..hehehe

tadi aku turun ke tempat food fair bersama abg nas. dah lama tidak bersua secara dekat. haha! aku dari last sem lagi nk belanja die. sebab ape aku dah tak ingat. hehe. so, dalam 830 camtu ktorg gerak turun ke bawah. beli makanan. pastu teeetttt.......hahaha. watever. dah membeli ktorg lepak jap dekat pc fair. dah bosan tengok orang maen pes ktorg naek atas kat dato. pegi makan kat cafe. dah berkurun aku tak makan kat situ. aku membuka cerita sedikit. tapi cerita abg nas yang paling aku suka. aku mendengar sampai abes ktorg makan. the end. hehehe. dapat jugak aku mengetahui endingnya. thanks bro! salah satu cara aku tak nak meracau untuk malam ni adalah dengan membusykan diri dengan orang lain. connection kan ramai... ;)

tapi tak semua suka dgn cara aku kan..... =]


rough note 2nd episode.



sleepy. yup. by right i need to get the strength to post for this entry.

frankly speaking, i'm a bit different right now.

not because i'm changing to be other person.

someone has changed me. changed me the way i communicate to that person and others.

but, again i've made the mistakes. the same thing i suppose.

damn. what's wrong with you wani?? can't you see that??

open your eyes bigger. as big as you can. if not open your heart wider.

seriously i'm a bit embarrassed. again i failed.

maybe i need to get a new formula. or at least the correct calculations one.

not simply taking any actions to step on.

i'm so sorry friends. i'm just don't even know how to differentiate things clearly.

i'm not that clumsy. i thought i have my own clearer, brighter future for **** thingy.

by just less than two weeks i failed to prove it right.

by the way, thanks for making me happy, smile with your jokes and messages.

i'm thrilled at the beginning. but it's getting cold in the end.

at least you have coloured my life more than i've ever expected.

i hope we can be friends forever. you are totally different from others.

i've just love the way you are. don't change it.

and i hope you don't know all about these. pieces of me.

=]



p/s: it has nothing to do with w. let me keep all of these tightly and alone. but in silence only God knows my feelings on that particular person. love you people.... =] 


magenshcmerzen!!!


ok. today's saturday. here it comes another weekend. for the past 5 days i had so much illnesses. keep of coughing, sneezing all day long. somehow i've been added with the greatness of stomach ache!! serious s*** it was painful. i've never had that kind of pain. ingat dah gastrik ke ape. sakit yang memulas. memang tak tahu macam mane nak bagitau. makan tak makan the effects will be the same. kalau kat bilik mostly aku akan baring. that was the best position for me to minimize the pain. haihh~ 

my roomate misal was worried because she said that my face turned to look differently. on thursday night i had my dinner and that was the peak of my sickness!! i was trying to act cool in front of others but i couldn't. actually i was controlling myself not to cry because the pain was totally different from what i've experienced before. late at nite i took panadol hoping that it will be getting better. well, at least.

yesterday, during classes time, the 'killer' came visited my tummy. stupid! please don't disturb me la time tuh!!! aku nak belajar kot. sumpah sakit. aku dahla memang duduk depan dengan kawan-kawan aku. takkan lah aku nak pergi buat muka kerut2 lak. i'm sweating you know... memang aku bersabar jela. hari jumaat kan. kelas terakhir aku, penilaian formasi aku dapat msg dari kak linda. she texted me asking for lunch together with her. so i was agreed. after my class pon abes at 12pm me and misal walked back and waited at the foyer. naekla kereta k.linda dan keluar makan. at first we went to the post office. k.linda posted something to his abah. then we ate at kedai zaitun, located near azura lama. people said la kan. i was losing my appetite so kalau tengok lauk aku pilih nampak sangat macam orang sakit. hell yeah i'm a sick person =[ . 

then we went to clinic. klinik dr. suraya, beside my uncle punya kedai dobi. the doctor asking me to lay down so she did tekan2 my stomach. uihh..sakit kot. after she detected the area then she advised me not to eat this and that. senang cite kira kena pantangla. aduyai. benda yang aku tak suka betul. nak buat macam mana kan. aku disarankan untuk tak makan makanan yang bersusu, pedas dan berminyak. lemah2. haiyak doctor! i will try my best to obey! ubat kenala rm16. interestingly, one of my medicine is written there 'charcoal tablets'. pergghh..hitam pekat kot. letak je dalam mulut boleh rase butiran2 tu cuba keluar dari the whole thing of tablet tu..aiyark~

p/s: alhamdulillah. i'm getting better. almost 80% recovered already. i need to minimize my spicy foods. how sad... =[

yahoooo...aizat menang~!!!

aku tersenyum girang gile
memang aku menjangkakan yang aizat bakal menang
dan sudah pasti lagu pergi lebih kuat pengaruhnya berbanding kau aku

lagu pergi aku suka sebab dengan kesesuaian jalan ceritanya: TALENTIME
aku nanges kot tengok tyme kt cinema...oopss.ngee
apatah lagi lagunya yang mendayu-dayu
part yang indian woman tu nyanyi aaaaaa je pon dh sedap
followed by dengan gadis melayu bermaen erhu
memang 1malaysia!
aku suke5~!!!!!

second song, kau aku
awal2 aku tengok budak kecil itu aku sudah terlintas di fikiran
siapakah gerangan budak comel itu
yang memaenkan peranan sbg aizat kecil
comey bile part dorg buat head banging skali
yup, it's him
adik weed
memang w ada cerita kat aku adik dia jadi prop
watak utama tu
lagipon w ngan aizat kenal sebab 1 sekolah
st. john institutions
comel kan adik dia??
aku tengok sebiji wey dengan w
fotostatkah mereka??hehe
yang pasti aku dah cakap dengan w
sila bawa adik anda ke ukm. mahu amek gambar sama dia.
dan aku akan pastikan kawan2.
nanti kalau aku dah dapat gambar dia aku postkan kat sini ok
i need your patience guys... =]

so as a conclusion here
aku nak ucapkan tahniah dan syabas kepada aizat and the team
sebab buat yang terbaek and you guys deserved ok!
baek untuk dua-dua lagu
tahniah!
tahniah juga untuk yuna as 1st runner up
dan faizal tahir aka MJ malaysia dah aku tengok
macam style pakai spec aviator won as 2nd runner up
untuk black tahniah dapat vokal terbaek
team aizat lagu kau aku menang persembahan terbaek
kredit dekat adek w ng the gang...sgt comey!!!
sekian.



p/s: aku happy sangat. tak tahu nape.bukan gewe aku pon yang menang.sumpah happy kawan2.haha~


the road not taken



i guess my friends have already noticed something
something that sounds familiar to them
inside my blog i suppose
about what??
if your answer is w, you are right peepz~!!

so i guess i need to stop mentioning about w
maybe you guys wanted other alphabets that need to be mentioned??
a?? z??
it's just not about alphabet
it's about story, journey
sometimes i don't even get it
i'm easily confused person
well that's me!
=D

so is there anything to do with the title??
more or less yes!
because i've shouldn't
ya, the road is taken
i shouldn't choose that road from the first place
ya, i was wrong
but why am i still allowed
that flow to move by itself??
am i too blind?? too deaf??
no i'm not
because i'm ignoring my on feelings
yes! that's it!
good job! keep up a good work
you 'love' to do that don't you??

why am i the only one that suffered??
what about you huh mister??
don't you feel the pain too??
or you assumed this as a joke??
you looked calm, relax
nothing's happened
your heart totally changed into stone
i'm stoned to hear that!

i need to be careful
careful with my steps
with the road full of holes and mud
it makes things harder and difficult
difficult to believe
anxious as usual
but until now
i don't see that road
as easy flow as highways
do i need to build my on tunnel??
maybe i have to
whatever it takes
to clear my mind and soul


i've chose the wrong road. i failed to reverse myself. ='[



not in a good condition =[


hye peeps?? how's life going so far?? well it's been a week i haven't updated my blog. sigh... i've been attacked by a fever. at 1st i had this very2 painful sore throat on last sunday. lagi2 la pegi karok lak kat alamanda. lagu terakhir aku nyanyi: crawling!! memang merangkak terus tekak aku cakap sakit!!! hahaha

woke up on the next morning, wallah!! i barely to swallow my on saliva. damn painful! keja aku adalah tido sepanjang masa. i took my medicine. i didn't go to PK or any clinics whatsoever. i guess my temperature was also rising from day to day.

on tuesday, finally my classes started. very early in the morning. at 8am. then i went back to my room. had my early lunch. took my medicine and went to sleep. that was what i did throughout the weekdays. i had my evening class at 5pm. prof bahar tu memang mengajar syok sendiri. aku kadang2 kesian gak tengok. die mengajar punyala bersungguh-sungguh dengan sense of humor yg bley tahan gakla. tapi sayang tak dapat nak tarik perhatian student. sampai kul 7pm kot.

move on to wednesday. the best day ever. i've lost MY VOICE!!!! uwaaaa.... i woke up suddenly i couldn't spoke out fluently to my friend, rudy. oh man.. not even husky voice came out. it was totally awful! uhuk3~ at 1st i went to my fac giving back the hammer i borrowed for the fieldwork thingy. i met a few of my coursemates there using sign language. huhu. i went back to my college having lunch with weed. long tyme haven't met him. still the same. but i'm just pity on him. he needed to understand what was i trying to say. i just ate 2 begedil with 2 cloud 9. i lost my appetite. we chitchatted until before the clock strikes to 3pm. he went to work and i went back to my room. 

the best part --> around 750pm me with my men2: misal, miza, rudy, tiqah and aki went to sunway to have our dinner. steamboat style. we ate till we drop wey! seriously full to the max. my tummy was going to explode in any minute during that tyme. sedap! dalam aku yg xde suara pon melantak dgn enaknye. marshmellow pon ade with chocs! heaven. but the most important thing happened was we met a boy in a green t-shirt. handsome. muke cam ian. dj hitz tu. ngeee

senyum dlm kekenyangan =D

look closer at the right hand side....hehe


yesterday, on friday nite, me with miza, misal and rudy had our dinner at warta's. eating kfc with almost-to-finish-chilli-sauce-bottles. we laughed hard. serious! even i didn't finished up my twister (recovery kan)..hehe. after that we went back and headed to dectar to watch anugerah seni. it was closed ceremony. haha. i had no idea about that. we met weed. dorang baru abes perform 1st round. followed by dunno la what performances. we chitchatted at panggung seni and did captured few photos wearing masks. i heard weed playing his solo and it was cool man! orang dah expert kan compared to myself. oh ya, he played trumpet. =] and for those pics will be uploaded soon k!

p/s: i'm still in recovery state.. feel dizzy all the time. i coughed badly till all my tears rolling down. tired and i hope for a better next week. =]

The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus!!!

hello people... sape yg kat sini suke berangan?? aku taw sure korang tidak terkecuali drpdnya. hehe. well, aku pun! imagine macam2. yg terkeluar dari langitla. tembus dalam teras dalam la. macam2. mungkin bg mengisi imaginasi anda yg membuak-buak itu ape kate korang nanti tengok movie ni:

The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus 

for your information, this is the last movie acted by multitalented handsome actor --> HEATH LEDGER. unfortunately, he died on 22nd Feb due to accidental "toxic combination of prescription drugs". meninggal pada usia yg sgt muda. tua sethn dr kak long aku. poor him. antara filem laen yg dia berlakon: 10 Things I Hate About You (1999) - sgt best wey, The Patriot (2000), Monster's Ball (2001), A Knight's Tale (2001), Brokeback Mountain (2005) - controversial film. it was banned in Msia and lastly The Dark Knight (2008).

during his younger age =D


filem ni bukan ada heath ledger je, got JOHNN DEPP (awwww~!!!), JUDE LAW (played his role as Dr. Watson in Sherlock Holmes), COLIN FARRELL and many more. the film follows the leader of a travelling theatre troupe, having made a deal with the Devil, takes audience members through a magical mirror to explore their imaginations. filem ni sgt berimaginasi. kalau korang kira peminat Harry Porter so this film is A MUST for you to watch! so for heath ledger's big fan out there, sila serang ke panggung wokeyh!!! the movie will be released worldwide on 8th Jan 2010. maybe. correct me if i'm wrong. ok guys?? have fun watching yaa~~


hey you straight-hearted!!!

what the heck?? what's wrong with you 'buddy'??
kalau kaw tak ada mood tak payah menyakitkan hati orang
luckily i had my day today
the blast one
maybe i was lucky
LUCKIER than you!

please bare in mind
jangan sakitkan hati kawan
kalau kaw tak bersedia utk bersembang
via electronic devices or what so ever
it's gonna give the same results too

hey you straight-hearted
please don't do that next time
so irritating and annoying
stop acting childish!

p/s: tiba-tiba aku jadi menyampah. minta maaf. kaw yg mula dulu.

sunyi...



sunyi?? ya, aku sunyi. ternyata malam ni sangat2 sunyi. sunyi sebab tak ramai manusia yang ada kat kolej. cuti panjang kan. ramai yang keluar jengjalan tak pun ada yang balik rumah. aku dan misal masih di sini. meniti hari demi hari memikirkan apa yang kitorang nak buat seterusnya. bosan tu tak payah cakapla. memang pun. huh! tapi apa boleh buat. layan sajalah.

semalam kami keluar ke sogo. berjumpa dengan adik misal di pudu pada mulanya kemudian bergerak ke sogo. aku tidak membeli-belah di sana. hanya membeli organizer. ya, aku perlukannya supaya jadual hidup aku lebih teratur memandangkan dah sem terakhir aku di ukm. kena lebih peka dan terurus.

camni la ktorang rase dalam train ktm dari ukm ke bndr tasik selatan. mau xpeyek. huh!


lepas dah membeli tu ktorang pon balikla. naik dari bank negara ke ukm. adik misal pulak bergerak ke klang. kiranya berpisahla ktorang di situ. tak lama pon kat sogo. tak mampu! sales yang merata-rata membuatkan homo sapien di seluruh lembah klang menjadi kacau bilau. duit tu kalau boleh mau dikeluarkan saja dari dompet. kayanya mereka. apatah lagi sales akan tamat esok, 3/1/10. apa lagi, dah macam cite confessions of the shopaholic! hahaha...

sebagai kenang-kenangan:

=D

ok. itu cerita kelmarin. untuk hari ni tak banyak benda yg berlaku. during afternoon i had my lunch with misal at usen's. not a good lunch i suppose. my meal was dull and pathetic! we went back to our room. looked at each other's laptops. and we talked "what shud we do now?? any ideas??" hurm. somehow misal got this saved movie inside her lappy. entitled amusement. i was thinking about some kind of comedy movie or something. movie that we shud laugh while watching it. i was wrong. there was no part of laughing. totally. cruel! damn much. me and misal were like kept on closing our faces with our pillows. thrilled!! we shouted like hell. tariking each other's clothes. haha. in the end, only one survival left. the rest all dead. huh! macam saw pun ade. luckily it wasn't that cruel compared to saw, people.

after finished watching, i went back to my desk and start facebooking again. nothing much. i did updated my twitter. that's all. i was looking at my phone. silence as i was at the cemetery. suddenly my phone rang. oopsss! it's w. shocked! i just picked up the phone and answered it. it wasn't that long. lasted for a minute and a few seconds. w was busy. his relative's wedding in shah alam. ok. understood. then the weather outside changed to dark, creepy, cold feature. it was raining heavily. misal was sleeping awhile before she had a phone call after that. i was chatting with my friends. one of them was en. mie aka cikgu 7 yupi...hehehe. been a tutor to misal: bahasa ganu =p . maghrib tyme, i had another call. asking for help. to play trumpet during our function for kdo's dinner. hurm, i'll think about it ya. then we went out for dinner to bbb tomyam. misal's friend, shah took us from here. around 915pm we were already back in college.

then, the gloomy goes very well inside me. growing like a tree, never ending. barely to stop. i wonder why. y?? wakarimasen. maybe i'm lonely i guess. if i were busy maybe i don't even have tyme to think such tacky feelings. just wasting my time. but still my mind loves to travel. far away from here. heading to universe. but now i'm back. back to reality. i have to. right peeps?? kalau ade jodoh adala kan... =]

i don't know about tomorrow. perhaps it's gonna be a bright day for me. go gurl!!!!

owh yeay bebeh~!!


here you are..2010!

people...


HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Welcome 2010


may all your wishes come true
good luck in whatever you do
may Allah bless you 


for me it's just a number, nothing is change.
you don't have to be different.just be yourself.chance for the better ones.
i'm afraid to turn 22. turn to be matured.to face the real life of working.
i'm sure it's gonna be a tough year.tougher than before.
gambatte!!and all the best...
*hugs and kisses*



happy new year.with love: nursyazwani abdul jalil
=]